So I applied to the Arizona State. And I got in. I’m doing it online since moving to Arizona isn’t an option I even considered.
(But I live in Chicago, and winter is coming so I may change my mind.)
I’m 26 years old. I’m supposed to be done with school, not finishing up my Bachelor’s with the current class of 2023.
(I was supposed to be class of 2015.)
Boyfriend asked me if I was excited to go back to school. I told him it was just necessary at this point.
But do I really feel this way? Am I really going to let being on a different timeline sour this experience for me and make less of finally being able to study what I want?
I originally wanted to go to Arizona State when I was in high school so the fact that I’m actually getting my degree from that school is pretty neat.
But it’s hard to be excited when I’m actually pretty nervous. The idea of going back to school has been making me nervous for a while. So much so that I wasn’t able to follow through with any goal I set for myself.
As the time passed, I got nervous that I was too old, that I wouldn’t be able to complete a program, that it was too late to be finishing a degree I should’ve gotten years ago.
I need to stop letting myself get in my own way.
(But even typing this and putting it out there makes me nervous.)
I’ve convinced myself that all the dreams I had for my career are long gone. But what if I just have to rework them a little?
There are a lot of things working against me but they’re all in my own head.
(And in my bank account. But those are easier to figure out.)
Am I excited to go back to school? Yes.
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